On being pathetic

pa·thet·ic

/pəˈTHetik/

Adjective Arousing pity, esp. through vulnerability or sadness. Miserably inadequate   ****   I am pathetic.    I am miserably inadequate.    I am pathetic because I seek approval from all the wrong people.    I am pathetic because, aside from my husband who is my best, I don't really have friends.    I am pathetic because despite my training as a counselor, I cannot deal with my own anxiety and depression.    I am pathetic because, again, despite what I have learned to be factually true, I believe that cutting will make me feel better and allow me to escape from pain.    I am pathetic because I make poor choices that go against what I know to be right.    I am pathetic because I know intellectually how to "fix" this situation that I am in, but I cannot put that into practice.   I am pathetic because I believe all of the above.