I heart Klonopin

Really.  It's my drug of choice.  It makes (almost) everything better...Almost.   Dr. C says it's like aspirin, you take it when you need a quick fix and 20 minutes later you are feeling better.  Yup, pretty much.

Today, I woke early with Little A, who doesn't know how to sleep past 7AM.  We watched some TV, snuggled a little, made breakfast.  It wasn't long before the rest of the clan was awake, and I made J and I our special weekend breakfast sandwich.  L and I hit up Walmart early because I cannot STAND the crowds and the type of people who are there later in the day.  And since we are hosting Father's Day tomorrow, there were a few things that I still had to get.  We were in and out, 20 minutes flat.

This afternoon, B, our summer nanny and babysitter extraordinar, took the kids for a few hours so that we could get Big A and L birthday presents.  I cannot believe that they will be 6 and 7 this week!  We hit up Toys R Us, crowded and filled with kids who were whining and crying and parents who were literally pushing other adults out of the way in the aisles.  It was insane!  We were able to get Big A her Lalaloopsy and the Scooter she wanted, and splurged a little and got L a karaoke machine. A little more then we had intended to spend, but they are worth it. 

Anyway, I could feel myself getting anxious and overwhelmed with so many people and so much noise, and was ready to leave the store after about 15 minutes.  The checkout lines were ridiculous, and by the time we reached outside of the store I was feeling the tightness of panic in my chest.  And, against my better judgement, we still had to go back to Walmart because I had forgotten a few things.  Let's just say, there is a reason that I don't go to Walmart in the afternoon.  Holy cow.  I know that there is a place in the world for everyone, but still.  It made the panic and anxiety so much worse.  We stopped at McD's for Diet Cokes and rushed home to get my meds....and now, about 30 minutes later, I am feeling much better.   The kids are running around the house playing with water guns that J bought for tomorrow and I am choosing to ignore until someone gets hurt.  And someone always gets hurt.  My kitchen and living room are clean and smell great, we just need to pick up the bathroom and front hall for tomorrow.....now tomorrow....Father's Day at my house, that will be a true test of Klonopin and its magical powers....